Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Are You All Right?

Too often in the past few days I've gotten people asking: "Are you all right?"
First it was my mom on the phone.
"Are you all right?" she asked.
"I'm fine. Why?" I responded.
"I don't know. You just sound kind of down."
Then it was my sister, also on the phone.
"Are you all right?" she asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Why?"
"You sound kind of down. And mom mentioned she thought you sounded like something was going on."
Then it was EG at work.
"Are you all right," he asked.
"Yes. Why?"
"You look like you need to eat something."
Then it was A at work.
"Are you all right?" she asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Why?"
"Something seemed like it was the matter," she explained.
I wonder what it is. Is it something I'm repressing? When that many people ask you if something is wrong and you don't consciously feel like something is wrong, then you wonder what could be wrong. I don't think it' some random occurrence because it keeps happening. Part of me wonders if it's my shaggy, uncombed hair. It's so out of control and I don't bother to do anything with it, so maybe it makes me look frantic and out of sorts. But that wouldn't explain why people on the phone are asking me if I'm all right. But maybe I'm seeing myself as frantic and it's coming out in my speech. I don't know. I guess I'll have to wait and see.

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